Sunday, 8 November 2009

Remembrance Sunday

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Yesterday a friend and I visited Alrewas National Memorial Arboreteun, here in the UK




The Armed Forces Memorial has the engravings of 15,000 names of service men and women who have died through war and terrorism since the 2nd world war. There are bare walls ready to take the names of a further 16,000




Some of the sculptures were very poignant. There is a solidier looking through an open door, as though entering into a different world. If you look through you catch a glimpse of a distant green field. A nurse tending an injured soldier who has fallen. A mother and child in total despair for their husband and father who is being carried from the battlefield. Whilst this is happening, there is a scultor engraving another name.




On the 11th Day of the 11th month, at the 11th hour, the monument is so built, that a shaft of light comes through a fine division in the monument wall, and focuses on the central stone wreath engraved there.




In the chapel there is a beautiful wooden sculpture of Christ. It is entitled The Story Teller. He is talking to 12 children. One of them is not listening. The child is busy investigating something else.




There were two wooden crosses in the chapel to represent the two thieves on the cross. One had a pair of handcuffs hanging from them that were open, to depict he had been forgiven. The other had a pair of handcuffs on that were locked, indicated the thief had not repented.




The volunteers who work there are dedicated and reverent. They are a mixture of very young and old. It would be difficult to say it is a beautiful place, because it is such a sad place. But, for anyone visiting, it is a very peaceful and thoughtful place, most especially for those who have friends and family commorated there.




When we drove away, it was not long before we found ourselves in another world from the place of stillness and reverence we had visited.I cannot say how I felt looking from this place of stillness inside, observing this mad crazy world we live in, they were both identical in many similar ways, but it was most surely a day of thinking about sacrifice, and the importance of focusing on God continually, to raise above the horrors of this world.




The services that will take place here in the UK today, will be remembering all soliders who have lost their lives. Some of it is a little unreal. There are people, who take part, who steal an essence of nobleness and dignity from the rememberance service. They are like the thief with the locked handcuff. But there are many veterans and servicemen today who genuinely do care for the fallen and their families worldwide.

Saturday, 26 September 2009

Alone In the Wild

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Ed Wardle's solitary journey to the Yukon Wilderness of Canada, was a fascinating documentary recently aired on Channel 4.






Well prepared in survival skills, Ed's boyhood dream became a reality, when in the summer of 2009, he was left alone, with a few basic supplies, and the desire to live and survive, amidst the beauty and harshness of nature, totally alone.


Using his own camera, Ed filmed himself, building shelter, providing warmth, and hunting and fishing for food.


The skinning and gutting of a porcupine, was an exercise in itself, on what we would have to do, were we faced with the choice of survival, without the convenience of a local supermarket, and money.


Watching Ed Wardle, one could not help warming to him and identifying with his childhood dream. But when the plane dropped him off, and then took off into the distance, the sense of isolation was suddenly overpowering. It continued to grow over the coming weeks. Joy turned to darkness.


Living with the constant fear of bears, the slightest movement became magnified. Darkness and nightfall, often saw him catching naps through extreme tiredness, when his heightened awareness succombed. Moments of pure delight, such as the beauty of the landscape, the swimming in the clear lakes, and the warmth and satisfaction of the campfire, were often tinged with great fear. He became tired and weak, through lack of food and sleep. But this was not the killer.


Over time, Ed became aware how much he missed human contact. The pain, played with, and tormented his brain. You could watch thoughts attacking him.


Watching this programme, I thought often, of the simple exercise of prayer. The periods of being still. But most importantly of all, of the objectivity of thoughts. Neither believing or disbelieving good or bad thoughts. Just merely observing them., and dealing with the present moment amid the truth that that presented. I thought of the awareness of our emotions, and how they can use us, and weaken us, when we are not fully aware.


So, there was times I was dissapointed, with a sigh of despair, when I listened to Ed's preparedness in dealing with the mind.


Prior to the trip a psychologist had taught him the benefits of meditation. It was a little light, until I heard that the meditation consisted of him going to a happy place in his mind. An image, An Illusion. He was already in the most beautiful place in the world. Then there was the writing of empowering statements on his arm. In bold black ink he wrote. Be Strong.


It was not long before Ed realized that neither worked. A defining moment, which takes many years to realize for some.

Finaly he decided to pray. The moment he did, he heard his girlfriends voice talking to him as though on a phone. It was so unfortunate that he found this to be his happy place. Yet understandable when you are aware of the pull of the mind to keep us away from the genuine prayer from the heart to God.

And so, it was not long after, Ed sent out his SOS to mankind, and the plane returned to carry him home. In many ways, I thought it was the right thing to do, rather than submit oneself to such mental and physical torture.
In summary, I admired Ed for his exercise and desire in survival. He was prepared to a high degree of self sufficiently and love of natural wilderness, but lacked the one fundamental component.
I likened his journey to Christ's journey of 40 days into the wilderness, but I doubt he made this comparison. He listened to his thoughts and he listened to the tempts. The intensity of the aloneness was something even Christ struggled with.

Terry Waite has described his own solitary confinement in an interesting article concerning the trip Alone in the Wild.

Terry Waite was taken hostage in Lebanon by Islamic Jihad in January 1987 and held captive for nearly five years, four of these in total solitary confinement, before he was released in November 1991.
He quotes:
'Solitude is certainly nothing to be afraid of. I think in fact we do need a degree of solitude and opportunity of having our own space. Having said that, people often say that they require it, but when they get into it they can't bear it. Because you have to equip yourself to grow into solitude, to gain the benefits from it. So first of all there are dangers. Going into solitude in some ways you are taking an interior journey, rather than an exterior journey, because it will encourage you to be introspective. And you discover that along with all human beings that you are a composite mixture of both light and dark. The secret of course is somehow being able to find that degree of inner harmony and balance which you have to grow into.'

I would say further from the above that it takes a long time for darkness to be completely dispelled from that mixture of both light and dark that we are made up of. But ultimately light dispells the darkness.
Being in a middle ground of objectively, and being aware of the battle between darkness and light in the mind is not an easy place to stand in. It becomes a torment if you listen to either. And this is waht happened to Ed Wardle.

Being prepared involves much more than physical sterngth and survivalist skills. To ultimately survive, it appears there needs to be a strong inner connection with the Creator, and a recognition we lack spiritual strength without his help.



Saturday, 29 August 2009

Perfect Balance

Ironbridge, Shropshire
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Sometimes I get a sense of guilt that I dont do more to highlight the injustices of this world.
Besides merely writing about things, the effort to actually get up and do something physically, often passes me by. It is not there inside. I am like a lazy bystander, an observer I suppose to many. Standing on a bridge as a lookout. Yet, there are most certainly times, when I would risk losing everything, for that which I know is true.

Where the world once seemed silent to me on the hypocrisy, the persecution, and the unfairness, that those in power had over us lesser mortals; these days I now see a host of people coming forward to speak up and expose that which is unfair and unjust on a whole range of subjects. There are millions of lies, inflicting themselves upon us. Though refreshing to hear people speak up, and the more the better, there is also a danger I think of becoming part of an identity, which can also act as a distraction to our own personal shortcomings. A sense of being a crusader, and a speaker, and activisit, can also act as a windshield and protector for our own ugly shortcomings, unless we are very careful.

There are many in the public eye, who can say and do the right things. They have the words, and they have the passion. They see. Yet behind closed doors there are many large and smaller lies that are covered. A life the public doesnt see. There is denial.

Often when these heros die, we wonder why. Were they good and genuine in heart, or were they distracted by their very own words and ideals. Thinking they had it, when really they hadn't. Conditioned by what is right, and understanding the words, rather than deeply loving with all their heart, what is right. Who is Who, in this mad crazy world we live in.

We suffer in the same way when we see preachers speak of Gods love. They know it, they speak it passionately. Yet, that small detection of them being caught up in image can be very confusing for searchers of truth. It can lead others astray.

And then there are the religious and contemplatives who have completely removed themselves from all physical existence and concerns of the world to devote themselves entirely to a life of quietness and prayer.
Do they love God more?

Am I a hypcrite. Yes, at times. The relief of getting something out and on to paper, and the peace of seeing truth, sometimes distracts me from the little things, whilst I'm talking on the big things. But its those little things that really matter I think.

Times when I spend just 20 minutes in the morning, being still in prayer. And times when I fall into bed without prayer at all. Small instances when I see myself talking of another. Assumptions I sometimes take too much notice of. And times when I laugh at jokes on TV when really I shouldn't. Shortcuts I make when I'm pushed for time. Times when I dont listen to my conscience. Times when I sit and write, whilst being late for work - I can justify my actions when I do that one!!

So there seems to be a very strange pull between wordly affairs and a place of nothingness and stillness. The importance of being active and the importance of being still. How much do we lose about ourselves until we become a really genuine authentic born again person.

Are there many people who could live without an identity at all whilst udergoing a transformation.
Die to an indetity, rather than add on to an identity.

There must be times we have to completely come out of the world altogether and not be concerned for what is happening too much, if only for short times. A vanishing. Is there a silent group of people undergoing this change

Surely we must love this place, more than the world. Is it a matter of perfect balance?






Sunday, 23 August 2009

Saved Alone

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There are not many hymns that I like, and I dont sing much, but now and then, quite by accident, I do take note of the words of a hymn that I happen to hear. Some of the old hymns seen to convey a deeper message....

'Saved Alone' are the words sent by telegram to Horatio Spafford from his wife, after the ship she were sailing on from America to Britian, SS Ville du Havre, sank in 1873. On board had also been their four daughters.

Horatio Spafford had not been meant to set sail with his wife and daughters that fateful day. He had been called away at the very last moment.

Prior to the trip Horatio Spafford had lost his business through a fire that had devasted the city of Chicago. And prior to that fire, Horatio and his wife had lost their only son too. The trip to England was meant to be a new start. A short reprieve from their terrible misfortune.

After the survivors were finally landed somewhere at Cardiff, Wales, Spafford's wife had cabled her husband with those two simple words, "Saved alone." Shortly after, Spafford left by ship on his way where his beloved four daughters had drowned, and pen at hand, wrote this most poignant text so significantly descriptive of his own personal grief – "When sorrows like sea billows roll..." The hymn "It is Well with My Soul" was born.

The poignancy of the telegram maybe indicates that we overcome our own personal griefs alone, but only with the help of someone who can save us, which no other man can do for us during such terrible times.

Often I will hear the words All is Well.


If we could bear grief with the same faith, to really know that it is well, we would indeed be free.

His story makes you think about being saved, and faith through terrible trajedies. There are not many people who could overcome such terrible loss. The inspiration to write this hymn at that particular time must have came from somewhere deep inside, where he knew he would have to go to rely upon to survive.


http://christianmusic.suite101.com/article.cfm/hymn_it_is_well_with_my_soul

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Quotes by A W Tozer

Constantly practice the habit of inwardly gazing upon God. You know that something inside your heart sees God. Even when you are compelled to withdraw your conscious attention in order to engage in earthly affairs, there is within you a secret communion always going on. A W Tozer.
Much of our difficulty as seeking Christians stems from our unwillingness to take God as He is and adjust our lives accordingly. We insist upon trying to modify Him and bring Him nearer to our own image. Religion today is not transforming people; rather it is being transformed by the people. It is not raising the moral level of society; it is descending to society's own level, and congratulating itself that it has scored a victory because society is smilingly accepting its surrender.
A generation of Christians reared among push buttons and automatic machines is impatient of slower and less direct methods of reaching their goals. We have been trying to apply machine-age methods to our relations with God. We read our chapter, have our short devotions, and rush away, hoping to make up for our deep inward bankruptcy by attending another gospel meeting or listening to another thrilling story told by a religious adventurer lately returned from afar. The tragic results of this spirit are all about us. Shallow lives, hollow religious philosophies, the preponderance of the element of fun in gospel meetings, the glorification of men, trust in religious externalities, quasi-religious fellowships, salesmanship methods, the mistaking of dynamic personality for the power of the Spirit; these and such as these are the symptoms of an evil disease, a deep and serious malady of the soul.

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

Because We Believe

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Andrea Bocelli: ****Despite the fact that I live in a fast-paced world, I live my life with a calm vision: I enjoy life's simple pleasures and face every challenge with passion. I try to always be optimistic by interpreting the real meaning of a quotation from the French novelist Antoine de Saint-Exupéry: "You see clearly only through your heart. The essential is invisible to your eyes."****


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Thursday, 13 August 2009

This is Bravery - It Matters How You Finish

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I've heard a lot recently of Dignitas. The swiss clinic where people go to die. And I've listened to a lot of excuses being made that people should have a right to choose to take their own life. Much of this is based on the idea of compassion, and dying with dignity, without being a burden on society and family. The clinic has assisted 840 suicides.

People will always take this option to take their own lives, but legalising it is wrong. Further, the laws that are now being persued so that prosecution cannot be made against those who assist those who wish to take their own life, will open the doors for further abuse of the weak and vulnerable. Not only by friends and family, but those in the medical profession, who see euthansia as a way out of suffering. It will be a law to ease their conscience.
It is worth remembering that prior to the holocaust, it is reported that the Nazis legalized volutary euthanasia killing thousands of mentally ill patients. Also, the Dutch commenced with assisted suicide to voluntary euthanisa and now a doctor can kill a patient without their consent.
In order to win sympathy for their cause, supporters of euthanasia highlight the agony of suffering, the lack of quality of life and purpose, and also portray euthanasia as being a very brave choice. They have a different outlook to those who choose to overcome suffering in the correct way. They do not possess faith.
I am concerned for those who whilst suffering from severe depression, may succumb to the thought of assisted suicide and be talked into taking this option. Also those who think they are a burden, and the elderly who may have choice taken away from them. Society has a distorted view of caring. Legalisation of euthanasia will distort that view even further.
I also think that there is a side to suffering which gives us the opportunity to look within ourselves, to realize things about our lives, and to make peace with God. Dignity and Grace results from the bravery of doing this. Something beautiful can come out of darkness. The soul could be robbed of that. Killing someone, out of what we believe is compassion, is a cover up for convenience for some. What could be considered as compassion will be used as the ultimate excuse for many misdemeanours.
Dignitas was also recently approached by the wife of a dying patient, who decided she did not want to live without her husband. They were prepared to assist her. The incident was remanticized, when in reality this person was mearly fearful.
Dignitas are also being investigated for giving a lethal dose to a healthy person. This is evidence that the organisation and some of its supporters believe that assisted suicide should not just be confined to the terminally ill or severely disabled.
The founder, Ludwig Minelli, blames monotheistic religions, particularly christianity for the prohibition against suicide. He has written "what if there is no God" Suicide should be an option for those who do not believe

The Daily Mail reported earlier this year that the Dignitas facility was pioneering new suicide methods apart from drugs. In March, the Mail said that a helium-filled plastic bag is put over a client's head until he suffocates. Juerg Vollenweider, deputy head of the Zurich Oberland Crown Prosecution, confirmed that Dignitas used the new method for the first time on February 18.



In contrast, I recently came across the ministry of Nick Vujicic, a young man who has no arms and legs, but works as an inspirational speaker. From the video below, I will say, So here is bravery. And here is his beauty. A reason for living. After you watch him for a while you see past the obvious. He has a wonderful smile.
But at 8 years old he wanted to take his own life. He saw no purpose, and believed that God had abandoned him. Watching him, one may say that he is like a circus sideshow, that he uses his disability to bring out emotional reactions. He does make fun of himself. But this man, has a love about him that chooses not to focus on himself, but chooses to help others see that it is not impossible to overcome severe disability and dissapointments, and have a purposeful life. He has faith. He also admits he still hopes that God may grow him arms and legs. He does not deny he would like that. He does not deny that God can do anything. Despite his infirmities. He chooses life. It could not have been easy for him or his family.
The finality of his bodily life will end like everyone elses at an appointed time. Some of us will die painless deaths, others will not. Some people die in terrible accidents.
In the meantime, true freedom can come whilst we are still here. We can learn to overcome our resentments and dissapointments in life, and our sufferings. The way is to have faith in God, Be Still, and to realize the example of Christ and the suffering he endured. He was resurrected.
I also think we must try and overcome to the end of our days. The gift of time has been given to us. We must not cut it short. This is Bravery to me. Because, like Nick Vujicic I think it really matters how you finish.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MslbhDZoniY


And the words of Terry Waite..................
I have to confess that in this bleakest moment of despair, I did think that death might be preferable to the life I was enduring. After all, within the grim walls of that Beirut block, my own failing body had become yet another place of torment. The end of my life, I mused, might be a merciful release.
But then the power of the human spirit prevailed - and Read more:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/debate/article-1204861/I-longed-death-dungeons-Beirut--Im-proof-life.html#ixzz0OEQhGGQh

Monday, 20 July 2009

Faith in Action and Jimmy Mizen

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March 18th 2008


In Memory of Jimmy Mizen
http://jimmymizen.org/



Though we speak often, of the rights and wrongs of this world, few bear the grace, to show it in their spirit when faced with their own personal dilemmas, especially when in times of true grief and adversity.


Each day, we face a world of extreme pettiness. Great resentment is displayed at the most simple of injustice. Imagined or otherwise. From the common cold to the state of the weather, mankind continually complains. Its rage transpires in one or two ways. Its either demands it rights through violent methods or it craves sympathy through self-pitying tears.


Few accept responsibility, or really crave or care to know the true and right way of dealing with that which is wrong, in the correct fashion. Whether on the giving, or whether on the receiving end of its dark power.


In a week in England, where a culture of uncontrollable, drunken football hooligans, both male and female, stormed the streets of Manchester, damaging everything and everyone in their path, elsewhere on the streets of London, a young boy visiting a bakery, became another victim of a senseless violent stabbing. Just another statistic in the UK where the increase in violence has reached epidemic proportions.


Whilst blame pointed the finger at the heavy handed tactics of the police on the streets of Manchester. CCTV footage showed the other side. A group of 20 men setting about one police office. A group of up to 50 overturning a car. Just because it happened to be nice, and just because it happened to be there.


Whilst debate raged, over the rights and wrongs of this event, in stark contrast, Mr and Mrs Mizen, the parents of Jimmy Mizen, the 16 year old, who had been violently stabbed, were showing a different side. Mr and Mrs Mizen, this very ordinary family, spoke not only eloquently on the need to not feed bitterness inside themselves, but their actions also displayed the true meaning of bearing pain, injustice and grief in correct proportion to the grace they had been given them through their faith. This they did on the world stage.


Many mock and belittle the gifts of faith. But, this week, in our very violent society, there are few who have not been extremely touched by the very real strength and dignity displayed by Mr and Mrs Mizen.


Real faith is not weak. Real faith should not be mocked, as so many of its opponents suggest and do. Faith is not always words. At times the spirit of it speaks far louder than mere words through someones actions.


We live in a world of great injustice. Not everything that happens to us is in proportion to what we deserve. Senseless and mindless acts of violence, terrorism and vandalism, hurt the innocent. How we deal with injustice in this world is whats important. It is agreed that harder penalties should be imposed on those who intentionally cause harm. Everyone knows the right thing to do. Society, and our government are not always doing the right thing. They are making too many allowances. So what do you do. The leniency being shown to violent criminal acts is creating further injustice. Creating further anger.


Mr and Mrs Mizen know what to do. Inside of them is the building block of something bigger. This week, during a time of great personal grief they displayed its strength. It was an inspiration to all. Everyone is talking about it. They made what was wrong, look pitifully wrong. This simple family made evilness look futile and decrepid. Small in the face of their bravery.In the face of the evil carried out on their son, they looked inside of themselves and saw the need to not let bitterness take root and destroy their family, despite its overwhelming temptation to do so. They have not excused evil. They have simply refused to let it destroy them further. Thus breaking the chains of its destruction.


It has been another dark week in british society but a ray of light actually shone through. And everyone sat up.


Faith in Action and the Family of Jimmy Mizen.

Out of the darkness, comes light.










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